Lessons

Im drownin here..
How did I get here?
Great work ethic?
Hardwork pays off?
Persistence pays off?
CURSED?
Worse?
Loser?
Bum?
Scum?
Questions I ask myself..
Reflecting on my life..
Wondering how I can wake up from this nightmarish dream..
Searchin it seems..
4 Joy? Happiness? Peace? Peace of mind? The Lime?Life?Breath?
Yes
Somewhere, I lost site of things..
I lost a piece of me..
Somehow I hafta find it or surely I will fall prey..
2 the swarm circlin around me..
Ready to take me out..
If..
When..
I show any signs of weakness..
Ready pounce on my very being..
But..
My back..has carried the weight of many..
U think u were the 1st 2 want 2 take me out?
I refuse 2 conform...
2 give n 2 u..
2 lose when I know the WINNER n me..
TRUMPS the LOSER n u..
Just wait..ull c..clothes dont make shit but designers money...
Cars end up n junk yards..
Words mean shit...
So TALK it..
Ha!
Better yet..
Id rather u walk it..
But u..ur very being..every morsel in ur body..
Is workin on how u can dead me..
It..
Hates me..
Detests me..
Is waitin 4 me 2 give up..give in..2 quit..
But Ive prepared my whole life 4 u..without even knowin..
Rite now...my BODY is buildin as we speak..
u know wha I mean..
Uve heard me say it b4..
A BIGGER.
BETTER.
ME.