Invisibility

Keen

Aware

Sharp

Quick

Wit

Sick wit it

Game?

Game.

U know I c it rite?

U know I caught that rite?

Brand new new?

YUP!

Thats how it B

When the time fits

Permits

Ha

Thats that "new money"

Nothing like that new new new

Im Kew Kew Kew

Be 5 different ppl

Around 5 different ppl

Hollow Man

Oceans seas

AAAAA....plenty

Consumption

Ur offense is going hard?..

my defense go harder..

This isn't all out war..

What is all this for?..

Pipe down..

Turn that frown upside down..

THIS SHIT IS ABSOLUTE COMEDY..

U figure out if ur Geppetto or the puppet...
MUPPET

Who I am?

My confidence, self worth, self-esteem, and self-assuredness come from my life's story. So if you see me exude confidence & I didn't comb my hair that day, or my clothes are not what you want them to be, and you think to yourself, why she still walking around like that? U know, with her hair pull back in that tight bun & she got her glasses on..it's because I am comfortable in the skin I am in.
God gave us all something special & unique, embrace what he gave you because Im definitely embracing what he blessed me with. More importantly my beauty runs from the outside in, the inside out. I am the epitome of beauty because I love & believe in me indubitably.

Back @ It Again..

So..

You know we all got a story..it makes us the people we r..

We are all strong in our own way because life experiences made us this way..

U know how it goes when life deals you a hand..

it's up to you to play the cards...

I think I have done alright, but not without some losses..

as long as I deal again..I WIN!

So..

Im back @ it again..

Im back 2 thinkin things thru..

This is good 4 me..

Berating myself for things not thought thru..

Things not good 4 me..like u..

Im finished with u..& u..

This is not a part of my life's plan..

Puttin my life in another's hand..

Coronary or heart attack..

I should..I could..

Ha!

If That...

If I was to..

If I...

But I'll stand back..walk away..take a back seat...

Say what I think because..

Nobody controls me..

But me..

Im just kid-----din..

Have any questions?

Concerns?

Don't send ur messenger..

Come c me..

Dont just have...

"All eyes on me"..

Come get me..

Can't bear 2 think..

Or stand..

Or be..

A minute without..

Ha..oh how I ha & heave...

This isn't a subliminal message..

It's however u take it..

Whatever u want it 2 be..

Never conniving..deceitful..

Sneaky..Shady...or Grimy..

Thats...

Not..

Me..

Im thinkin..

That mite b u..

And thats kew..

Apple doesn't fall 2 far from the tree..

Y did I STOP listenin 2 my gut..

My instincts..

Can't we just all get along?

LOL!

ABSOLUTELY..

I can't be fake or phony..

I hv no tolerance 4 BS!..

Im so over it..

Go play somewhere Im busy..

Get some encouragement..

U need me help u?

Here's a tip..

They wrote some books on it..

Audios too..

Singers sing about it..

GIRLS RUN THE WORLD..

Shouldve helped u...

Jealousy is not kute..

BACK THE FUCK UP..

If it helps u...

U WIN?

I LOSE?

KEW..

Back @ it again..

This time..

So sorry 2 disappoint u..

But..

Im not backing down..

Kid..

Kid?

Grown?

GROWN.


Disclosure: This isn't about "THE KID" its literally about "kids"

On 1 #?!

 

They swarm around me like satan n a circle..I pray u all off me..Let God straighten u all out..and heal ur mind, body, & souls...This is how an adult do..I don't play with kids..shoo..skoot..skoot..As an adult..this is how Imma handle u..Ive put u in a corner..ur in time out for 21 seconds..22 minutes..24 hours..and for 30 days..This wha imma do...Imma fast on u..all of u..

Big Ego 5

2 worried abt material things/
U 4got 2 build on otha things/
U live alone?
NO..
U got a roomie?
YES..
Been there..Done that?
YES..
U posed get ur own spot..
I had 1 b4 I was ur age..
I may b livin in the last days..
But surely I will rise again..
Then....nevermind..
Its what u dont c that makes me not worry..
Mad cuz I won't let u do me..
U got so much..
trade it n 4 a better one..
I mean..
a better car..
Cuz rite now..
Im waitin get like u?
Keep askin abt me/
Keep talkin ISH/
This lil kid..is really a grown woman/
Whisperin N the ear of each otha/
Somtimes u gotta put a child in their place/
Still aint learned ISH/
Think ur fly?
I laff @ ur fashion sense?
Ur style is lame?
And let me let u in on a secret?
Ur a lil 2 femi--nine/
And u lil kid...go fix ur wig/
Grown folks in the ring/
U wanna get in?
DING!
Ur go/
O and/
Since u got it like that/
Getta new whip/
and uh....
KEEP MY BIG EGO OFF UR LIPS!
The Kid is out..ready when u r 4 another bout..
Ready get it in like schwinn..
ur move..ur go..
LET'S GO!
Come get me..

I gotta BIG EGO 4

2 worried abt material things/

4got 2 build on otha things/

Keep askin abt me/

Whisperin N the ear of each otha/

Still aint learned shit/

tole u b4/

KEEP MY BIG EGO OFF UR LIPS!

ISOI!

Im tired people actin like 5 different people AROUND 5 different people!!!

ON some other ISH

I don't give a damn about u taking cheap shots..
Im ready 4 u...whether it b 1..2..3..or 4 of u..
I understand it is what it is..if thats how it is..
I let karma handle my lightweight while I continue set these success dates!
Everyday in this place is like the Young and the Restless! 
Stress this!
HA!
Ur lookin @ the best kid..
U ready 4 this? 
Im amid ur eyelid?
Go play on a swing...
Lil kid..
Put n ur bid...get lost in it..this is out n the open..aint shit hid-den..ya dig!
Who needs a man as a motivator?
Im always...
ON some other ISH!

ON 2DAYS EPI OF: HEALTHY HAIR

Take my advice its free:

-This is not just a process for “long” hair or for those wanting to grow their hair, but a formula to healthy hair, because when you focus on the “health” of your hair, it will grow to its "longest possible natural length". Your hair will never grow longer then your “natural length”, but it can and will be healthy.

LOVE

defined as strong affection, tenderness, sexual desire for another..

But LOVE seems 2 b deeper than that..

It will have u baring ur soul 2 one person..

Because u believe ur LOVE will stand the test of time, and then ur disappointed every time..

LOVE has broken many of hearts, mine 2 start, and I mustered up the strength to break free..but 

U wont release me..LOVE..let me go..let me be..let me live..

I can't bare it any longer..Ive bared my heart & soul 2 LOVE..

And yet..LOVE refuses to hear me..never listens..just takes my LOVE & says..u owe me...

At all costs..no matter what..

But..what if..LOVE...what if..I wake up one day & LOVE has passed me by..

LOVE doesn't seem to care..LOVE is faith..LOVE is loyalty...

U can't escape it..it takes away ur very breath..& n that breath u again..try 2 break free..2 walk away..&

The LOVE that u have LOVED...pulls u back in..

LOVE never breaks free..makes u smile when u think of it..cry when u cant bear it..

I wonder if..I can..say..my LOVE is more powerful than I imagined..my LOVE tears @ ur soul..LOVE.complicates LIFE

LOVE comes @ a sacrifice..

LOVE..is..everything it should be..everything it was meant 2 be..except..

LOVE makes u choose..

LIFE over LOVE..

MY MIND..BODY & SOUL..

This is food for my soul..I needed this..4 me...& only me..

I GOTTA BIG EGO 3

Oh! I'm back on this other shit!
I won't compete with U! I'm above all that! I have always aspired to genuinely help those around me, but now....It's all about me..So Holla @ me or better yet COME GET ME!
Most won't understand this, I'm sorry about that, I just had 2 get some ish off my chest..2 those of u who "get" me and really love me and give a !%#* about me..Thank u 4 being a part of my life...I appreciate and love u!
But to those of you always runnin ya mouth..trying to act like I wanna be like you..listen boo..I AM ME! U dealing with your own insecurities..
I wish life wasn't such a BITCH..NOW RUN TELL THIS!
BiG EGO

Accomplishments..

Can be seen with ur own eyes, or from the piece of paper handed 2 u for each 1 u put under ur belt..

I got those..

some ppl got more

some less

some..none @all

Who u r

Wha u have

is either the truth

or its not

CAPITALIZE on ur talents

or let them wilt & die

ur move..ur choice

I believe n failure

I believe n fallin on my face

Ive had my "first time for everythings"

happen often..its happening NOW

The difference is..I dont give up or give in or make excuses 4 my life

I keep tryin..movin..reachin..

I give 100% without being opportunistic..

runnin game on ppl

cheatin ppl

or gettin over on anyone

When u can say that

then I'll believe you

til then..

I'll watch u stay where uve always been

watch u wait 4 others paydates

WAIT!

get some accomplishments!

Get something on ur on..by urself..with nobody's help..then...

I'll believe u..

Til then...

ISOI!

BLOG THERAPY 11

‎2 realize ur full potential, u must know ur worth, 2 realize ur worth, u must live ur life, 2 live ur life, u may have 2 walk away from others, 2 walk away from others, u must B willing 2 undo..unlearn EVERYTHING..Its amazing 2 me how ppl do things & u bear the consequences & the weight of that..Im willing 2......undo..unlearn..relearn..walk away..

u seem 4get..Ive lived my whole life 4 other ppl..

THIS IS MY LIFE...I won't do things anybody else's way, but my own..from this point forward..either jump in with the way Im doing things or keep it moving..I won't sacrifice any longer, I am going 2 be SELFISH from this point forward..Live in my moment..or..don't..either way..Im putting me first..

I have no choice but to..c..Ive been pushed 2 far..given up 2 much..put myself on the line 4 others 2 many times..2 let u in..let u win..or put u or anybody else first..wont b...cant b the case..

"U" in a relative state...

This is my truth..my life..my thoughts..my blog therapy..

SHARE MY BLOG

If you feel me...share my blog with others!
Thank u n advance

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice its free:

  IF u decide to blow dry ur hair, use a roller brushes or use the comb attachment so that u don’t have as much breakage

ME

Whoa wait wha u say?

Damn that little awkward looking, dark skinned, "ugly" girl then blossomed in this world...

YAll really like 2 talk ish..

Ur not as cute as the older ones..u only hv "good hair" b/c ur mama lite skinned...

BITCH wha u got?

I got that u gotta look @ me 3 times type swag..
I love that about me..makes a man appreciate me..

I dont put it all out there like u do..

BOOBOO

Ull never be pretty..so this must be a glamour shot..whoa wait..b/c it was a pretty pic u wanna take cheap shots..remember beauty fades..looks like ur on that track..my "ugly" duckling ass has blossomed n2 a beautiful swan..REEEALy?
HA! O ok..well let me let u n on a little secret..
My self esteem..self confidence..self worth is thru the roof..
Ur the one walkin around talkin about what u used 2 b..now talkin ish 2 me..sounds like u BITCHES wanna GET like me!
Im on some other ish..dont hv time worry abt U..
BIIIIOOOTCH!

REFLECTIONS

 

No sons No daughters, as bad as muthafuckas talk no ABORTIONS either, I laff @ that shit, use a condom or birth control it really works ya dig!
I actually was tryna be a role model, Show the importance of having a man around 2 help witH ish!

still doesnt stop people from talking ish..spreading lies & rumors!

ISOI!
Sorry I did not start early like you..
I tried 2 be a positive role model, but now I'm done..it's my year shine, it's really all about me...just let me be..Don't worry bout me..Imma always put my best foot forward and make it work...Seems like thats making some of u go beserk!
I know Im b n a jerk..word of advice..STOP lyin about ur accomplishments & get some real ish!
BITCH!

On 2days EPI OF: ROLLER SETS

Take my advice its free:

-When you go to the salon, advise your stylist that you want a roller set, try this for @ least 3 months.

It will reinforce what you are already doing. 

If you can stick to roller sets over heat, your hair will stay healthy.

-They can be the hard rollers (any size), straws (yes actual drinking straw), or flexible straight rod. 

FOR BEST RESULTS: Use a FOAM setting lotion

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice its free: 

Buy the hard hair rollers (biggest you can find, they may be gray in color for loose curls, or whatever size u choose) and learn to roll your hair (if you don't already know how), the less heat, the healthier your hair and this also will give you the volume you want(is hair is limp). (this would be for those who have thin hair & volume or just want healthy hair) you will also need to buy a sit under dryer.

FOLLOW ME!

DONT JUST VIEW MY DAMN BLOG! FOLLOW ME!
LOL!

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice..it's free:

YOU SHOULD PLAN ON WASHING YOUR HAIR EVERY 3, 4, 5, OR 7 DAYS (you will figure out what works best for you) but it is important to have a routine because the goal is to “train” your hair to do what you want it to do.

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice..it's free:

"I just seen ur hair & it gave me a coronary & um..here's a tip"

IDK Y u think brown/black gel is gettin it? its not..cut it out!

Im not a hairstylist...BUT

Imma bout 2 start walkin around with a hair party pack! 

Its not that hard learn how 2 comb ur own hair

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice..it's free:

"I just seen ur hair & um..here's a tip"

Let ur hair air dry/then flat iron &/or press it..

conditioning is the key

Tired c n tired ass weaves

Adjust ur weave like u would a skirt
Stop wearin weaves if u can't pay that real dough 4 em
& when u pay real dough 4 em..
style it so I cant c the lacefront
matter of fact..stop front in
tired ur tired ass weaves
Wear ur own hair
Learn how 2 comb it
Learn how 2 manage that shit
I told u I got that young word doc
I can send it 2 u real quick
matter fact
lemme wait on that
Imma stop givin way my tips 4 free..
PAY ME

HI HATA!

Hand in HI HATA MOTION: 

On 1 4 a minute...N my purest form..hair pulled back..Old Navy t-shirt on..C u think u lookin @ the BEST of me..Layers 2 this onion..pages 2 this book..Either way it goes..Imma good look..Got goals..dreams...aspirations 2 make it..

MOTIVATION...

Focus on the good things about u..Build up ur self-esteem..self confidence..self worth..Nobody's perfect..learn love best things about u..it may far exceed me..but ur 2 worried abt me..2..c..ur own beauty? talents? But until then..until u do..I'll continue..2..turn my haters N2 motivators

ME

this is the birth of me..

ME

I am who Ive always been..

Learning 2 take risks & chances..hence the creation

of this blog..posting my thoughts

& opening myself up 2 criticism 

is tough 4 me...but how else am 

I posed 2 make it..

I can't take it..

WTF was this college degree 4..

Life is still closin every door...

Fast as I open them back..

I slip further & further back..

Should I just slack?

Say Fuck that?

C..I think about shit 2 thoroughly

Ready 2 give up & put up & shut up n the same breath..

Sittin here wonderin

Y THE WINNER N ME WON'T QUIT..

GOOD HAIR

What's good hair? Training ur hair 2 do EXACTLY what u want it 2 do!
Whether ur hair is natural or relaxed u must"TRAIN" it 2 do what u want it 2 do. That's the secret! Thats "GOOD HAIR"

REAL EXTRA...REAL RANDOM

Yeah..Im laffin @ u...don't be mad @ me...get like me...

UUUmmmmmmm..Wha kinda pefume u wearin?

 

It's not like that..
U know that "girl what kind of perfume you wearing?" type "tude"
That..Im think Im hotter bc Im lite skinned type groove..
In other words, who do you think you are that ur !*%# don't stink, naw thats just not it!
Im on that who r u 2 think that I can't stunt or I need wear makeup more often type ish!
U know that..Im 2 dark for this or that or whatever other minute thing you can think up because you have ur own issues..
Im on some..
O no!
I have this I've been holding it n 4 2 long type attitude..
Bump IT!
Im On One!

BLOG 10

Blog # I can't count in this bitch! SHIT! ROTFLMAO ISOI!

I am...

 MY HAIR...

My Blogs/Therapies/Thoughts

Are ALL my expressions, some are old..some are new..some show my growth..some show I have a lot of growing to do..but they all meld together and "marry" into me..1 person, 1 soul, a woman lookin 4 her destiny

ON 2DAYS EPI OF: "K?"..."K."

 Take my advice..it's free:

Use a comb, 

brush, 

setting lotion, & 

a holding spray next time..

"K?"..."K".

ON 2DAYS EPI OF:

Take my advice..it's free:

"Practice makes perfect"

Practice usin a relaxer & not a perm..

know the difference! 

ISOI!

ON 2DAYS EPI OF:

Take my advice..it's free:

 

"Ill show ALL my damned cellulite"

Its kewl..but please hv some barf bags handy thx! 

ISOI!(Im So Over It!)

ON 2DAYS EPI OF:

Take my advice..it's free:

On 2days EPI of:

"I'd rather NOT whip my hair!"

"Ths bitch just skipped the conditioner "Id rather gather & slather n tht yung black gel" -_-

Competition?

Dsnt understand competition almongst women..line us all up..a man gone pick who he wants..he may pick us all

STOP FITE-N!

Leave ur HEELS ON, guns, razors, & shanks @ home when u go out 2 the nite club..we grown round here..use ur fist..better yet STOP startin mess! ISOI!

Let's Get It Together

Take my advice..it's free:

Please STOP puttin that nasty BLACK gel n ur hair..

its not becoming n any season..I hv word doc help u..u want me send it?

FEED MY EGO THERAPY 3

U missin it/I'm the key/the golden wrapper/im charlie from the chocolate factory/the dark skin friend that so much shit is talked about/keep my name out ya mouth/cant u go another route?get on some other shit?get some accomplishments?then come holla at a bitch?

oompa loompa/smegil from the rings/inch high private eye/nigga thought i wasn't keen/whaever u got ta say/dont 4 get i shine brightly

see it cant alwys be about clothes/fashion/somebody else's money/ then got a job/then got that new lil bit of money attitude/but u still askin urself y u aint got wha i got/bcuz im kinda hot/im definitely that deal #1/dont worry ull figure it out/1 day itll flow out ya spout/then ull shout it out/in the pulpit/kingdom hall/or bow down facin east.../MISS ME! (smirk)

damn that was blog 8 this is blog 9

I need 2 get this ish rite! fml!

I gotta BIG EGO 2

U missin it/I'm the key/the golden wrapper/im charlie from the chocolate factory/the dark skin friend that so much shit is talked about/keep my name out ya mouth/cant u go another route?get on some other shit?get some accomplishments?then come holla at a bitch?

oompa loompa/smegil from the rings/inch high private eye/nigga thought i wasn't keen/whaever u got ta say/dont 4 get i shine brightly
see it cant alwys be about clothes/fashion/somebody else's money/ then got a job/then got that new lil bit of money attitude/but u still askin urself y u aint got wha i got/bcuz im kinda hot/im definitely that deal #1/dont worry ull figure it out/1 day itll flow out ya spout/

Til then/C u at the top/I don't have a prob savin u a spot/im that hot/that nice/that dope/willin 2 share the wealth wth somebody i thought was a bloke/u just a joke/thought success and experiences were 2 b shared/thts a difference of opinion/ but u cant duplicate me anyway/so y compete/u 4 got 2 build on other things/ding

I GOTTA BIG EGO 1

I don't know why success can't be celebrated together..

Why we can't treat each other better..

Doesn't make sense to me..

It's cool..

I'll continue..

To....

Turn my haters into motivators..

BLOG 8

Blog # I can't count in this bitch! SHIT! ROTFLMAO ISOI!

Blog Therapy 7

Ppl are going to judge me and think negatively..
Im just gone let them be because they aren't making or breaking me.
Matter of fact you aint putting a strain on me..

I've always been a leader..

I have to get this out and...

Step out on faith, trust myself, believe in myself, understand that no matter what I do, someone is going to push back, someone is not going to like this or that, someone is going to say SHE CAN'T..
I will continue to show you I can..I am..I will..I do..

Because if I aint doing something for you, you aint concerned about it..

Ain't nobody ever supported my cause..so why should I support any of you..

Some of you even got the nerve to say what your child or friend is GOING to do...

But what you gone do?
You come get me..don't send someone to do it for you..

Blog Therapy 6

Im whatever you think I am..Whoever you think I are...I still have that secret thing that makes you all insecure...
BOOBOO..
But I will stand up..get up..stay strong in this BOUT..
Imma stay in the ring..ready to fight cuz I got that clout...
Ding!/the rounds over/bouts over?/rematch when you recover/

This may be my last BLOG THERAPY..
Some think this is just arrogance or negativity or even that Im not really shit..Who I think I am?
A woman who has finally decided to get some things off my chest
Put some things to rest..
A point of view from my side of the fence..
Its my truth..
Its my life..
You judge you..let me judge me...
Then maybe we could get to being friends and family..again..

BLOG THERAPY

Im making some tough decisions that will affect my whole life. I'm putting my foot down and turning my whole world upside down.

Face on frown..think Im about to drown in my own sorrow, but I know its for a better tomrrow..I just gotta weather this storm of dark days..that's what happens when u dont do things your way...

Because Im determined to make it happen..Im going full force..full torque..full blast..hope my relationships last..if not will have to leave them in the past..

Gotta keep working on me 2 be the best person I can be..see..it's been a long hard road..I understand I made it this way..so now..it has to be undone?..

PROGRESS

Progress sometimes comes at a price.
Progress is sometimes called sacrifice.Progress makes me work harder, smarter, & patiently.
Progress is what makes me believe in me...
Progress laid MLK Jr to rest & raised PRESIDENT Barack Obama
Progress got me a degree after 13 years of hard work, dedication & prayer.
Progress should be recognized & respected.I respect U & UR progress so that everyday of your life is better.
Action trumps talking about it, so I get up everyday & I DO something about "it".
Whatever "it" may be, I don't sit around waiting for progress to find me.
"Progress" in 2011, what will you get off of the couch & FB 2 be?

Complications

Rules, choices, decisions, perception..
Rite? Wrong? "Am I..Doing the rite thing"
Walk away? Stay?
Life
Complications
So stuck in my ways
So in my ways I stay stuck
Hoping get out of what Ive mucked up
I can bear it all..
Or can I?
Ive risked it all..
Or have I?
Complications

Blog Therapy

Every which way I turn/somebody telln me I aint got it right/u aint figured out wha u wanna do with your life/pls blve Im not loungin on the couch/Im n a bout 2 win-ner take all/yall/gone c/i had a plan/1 day ull know/i mastered in/progress/talkin all that shit/SPSS/I jus look like this/I digress/graduate/pen to paper/conscience to qwerty/dont matter how u put it dwn/long as u find the shit tht make ur world go round/u can frown all u want/pick me apart/open up my brain and dissect my parts/u still 2 late/i c u reachin/tryin/strugglin/pullin/n ths rat race/u still @ a snails pace/i keep tryin hint at it/it aint all bout wha u c/i can count down the best parts of me/u still dont stand a chance/dont worry we can line up/a man gone pick who he wants/ so y compete?

competition is a good thing/but y does it have 2 be btwn supposed friends and family/i only get 1 chance in this life/i wont waste it on ur strife

i thought those extra things u took up wldve helped out ur self esteem/when it ddnt/i put u on a back burner came back u still on that other shit/everybody quick 2 say 2 me/ u crazy this/u crazy that/u weird this/u weird that/u act like this/u act like that/that may b a fact/but i got that thing that living at home til u grown cant buy/going 2 a gym cant make lean/and that clothes cant fix/im alwys guilty til proven innocent so i decided i dont give a shit! I turn my back/face my arrogance BITCH!