FIRST COLLEGE GRAD WHETHER U LIKE IT OR NOT..BITCHES!

I am the first college graduate on my mama's side of the family. 
I used to want to be a role model, to positively encourage..to help..to support..now, Im just focused on continuing 2 be the best person I can be.

My whole life Ive been surrounded by opportunistic ppl..full of opportunism & opportunistic ways..Ive been over "U"...I think we all realize that..Life is 2 short 2 hold grudges, & definitely 2 short 2 worry about giving my energy 2 parasites.

There are some people who don't get it until it's too late or almost 2 late or never @ all. Sometimes "U" have to see people for exactly who they R & "U" have 2 let their life run its course & pray that they turn out alrite.

Ive lived most of my life for others. Mostly for ppl who really dont care, who ddnt & dont deserve my time, energy, or breath..they came and come around 2 c what I have (and compare) or to take what little I can give..whether its $$$, info, material things..or honestly…anything they can get!

They are coming for me! Don't think I don't see you! Ha! Its fine..I have a different take on life..I won't compete with "U"!

Catch up to me, pass me, doesn't matter to me! 

Im checking my goals off genuinely. 

Im happy 4 "u" & "ur" continued success..b/c these children NEED positivity & positive role models in their lives!!! 

(SALUTE)

I wish u the best..

Nothing I do is b/c of somebody else anymore. I won't go outta my way to help anybody, Give "U" any info or anything else B/C u simple, basic, ignorant ones hv ruined it 4 me. 

BTW "U" is rhetorical...."U" is an affinity..or if "U" think Im talking about/to "U"...then I AM.

Im talking about ppl who are just messy & shady..alwys in ur business..acting AS IF they really care..BUT "U" DONT! or are supportive..BUT "URE" NOT! 

"U" ARE just like errbody else..trying c what "U" can get, take, steal..

Getting errthing I have & coming behind errthing I do..& 4 what?! 

Im happy & GLAD U CAN DO IT! 

What are u jealous & envious of? I hv no more or less than "U" do. 

I hv vowed to live my life for me...& I am doing so slowly..Ive worked hard to get to where I am and everybody wants to pat themselves on the back. 

IM TIRED OF THAT!

"U" DDNT STRESS..STRUGGLE..SACRIFICE..PRAY..CRY..LIKE I DID/DO to ENSURE my goals, dreams, & aspirations become reality..and more importantly, I don't think I'm better than anybody. 

I DON'T BELIEVE IN BEING "BETTER"..I BELIEVE IN & STRIVE FOR GREATNESS.."U" CAN KEEP THAT SIMPLE..BASIC.."GOOD" ISH!..I’ll leave that petty, “I just got over on “U” to get what want” backwoods way of thinking, “Im better than “U””, FOR ALL OF “U”.

Im not perfect..Ive made mistakes..Ive never tried to give the impression that I am/haven't. 

That's ur insecurity. 

"U've" always had a/the problem with me.

 I jst ddnt know it..

WELL...I DO NOW!!

ANYTHING I SAY DOESN'T COME FROM BEING UNHAPPY OR MISERABLE. IT COMES FROM THE EXASPERATION OF BEING TREATED LIKE TRASH UR WHOLE LIFE BY PPL WHO SHLDVE NEVER DID IT...

"FAMILY"..

TO BE ABLE TO GET OVER SOMETHING/SOMEONE MEANS THAT THE THINGS THT ARE HAPPENING HAVE TO STOP..

SO THATS WHY IM MAKING MOVES TO RID MYSELF OF TRASH..I MAY BE TRASH TO "U" TOO..THATS KEW..B/C THE FEELINGS ARE COMPLETELY MUTUAL!

THERE R VERY FEW PPL WHO GV A DAMN..I STILL GOT "U".."U" KNOW WHO "U" R..BUT THOSE OF "U" WHO ALWAYS HV SOMETHING TO SAY..

ITS OKAY..I WISH U WELL..I PRAY ALL THE THINGS "U" WANT AND NEED HAPPEN TO AND FOR "U"..MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS "U" & "UR" FAMILY(IES) AND I MEAN THAT GENUINELY.

THE REASON IM SO FUCKED UP..IS FUCKED UP!

DYSFUNCTION IS SOME SERIOUS ISH!

But I know Ive always been genuine & good 2 “u”..&..im over it..

“Ure” smart..capable..& can def do it on “ur” own..

We dont need each other..

I believe we're both @ the point where we realize it..

PPL always wanna take way from my accomplishments..It took me 13 years to graduate! 
"U" had the same time more or less 2 do it b4 me! & "u" didnt!! 

THATS UR FAULT! Im not gonna apologize..

WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT..IM THE FIRST COLLEGE GRAD! 

DONT BE UPSET ABOUT IT..UVE HAD/HAVE UR FIRSTS BEFORE ME...& IM KEW..IM FINE WITH THAT..

Im not the one competing or bragging...THATS "U" when I tell anybody anything..I was just sharing things that were/are going on in my life! 

I just felt the need to point that out! 

I have goals, dreams, and aspirations..to make it 2..just like "U"!

Continue to compete with me, that's your problem!

My resilience to succeed will continue to lead me. Although I will never extend myself to others again completely, I won't stop being who I am..Im jst gonna go back 2 guarding myself & 2 trusting no one. 

My thoughts are only my thoughts now bc ppl either wanna compete or wish ill on me. 

If “u” dont know what's gng on with me..then “u” dont know what to wish ill on or compete against. 

Ive learned that most ppl dont care about me, they are just waiting to see what Im going to do next and do it after me, or rush to do it before me.

“U're” only competing with “Urself”.
Im just tryna experience all that life has to offer..

“Finally!”

Ive worked hard to get to where I am. Ive just tried 2 show these children that “u” can make it positively. 

Use sweat equity 2 do it! 

Guess what..

I fail, I lose, I fall often & I fall hard, but as LONG AS I GET UP & TRY AGAIN..I WIN!..

AS I ALWAYS SAY..

"THE WINNER IN ME WONT QUIT"...

I am a completer..a finisher..a leader..a WINNER...

I pray that God heals ur mind, body, and soul 2 help "U" get over the HATRED , JEALOUSY, & ENVY "U" have in "UR" heart for me. 
Because Im over "U" in dubiously.

SHUT UP BITCH!

Thoughts I think..
Things I wanna say..
Sometimes I just say it..
I know I let you win when I do...
And I take that chance, its kew, really its kew..
I understand that deeeeep down inside, something isn't right..
And I understand its a pretty lonely place when you're too much of a coward to love urself for u..

I Just think that sometimes ppl need a reality check, including myself, IDK Y u believe ur on some other level that nobody else is, that nobody can obtain WHAT U "HAVE", u ddnt get there alone, but u sure will try ur best ensure nobody IS on "ur" level or gets there. Ur insecurity is more transparent then u think. Whether Ive changed or not, will always be a toss up, but delusion..is..another..thing..$$$/MATERIAL THINGS sure hasn't helped u grow any, OR TO love urself more, or to take accountability, responsibility, ownership 4 ur life. Keep talking about me, taking shots, making stank comments, thinking IDK..I do...I needed to hear it/that..its helping me grow..May God heal ur mind, body and soul.

Be prepared..

When u takin shots at someone..for them respond...
FOR A "WHO DO U THINK U R?...
THAT U THINK UR ISH DONT STANK?... &
THAT U HV IT COMPLETELY TOGETHER?.. &
REMEMBER...THERE WAS ONLY (1) PERFECT MAN WHO WALKED THIS EARTH..
& IT WASN'T U...

THAT IS ALL...

SOME PEOPLE

Got issues..

Got problems..

Are actually smart..

Are intelligent..

Are gifted..

Are driven...

Are motivated..

Are focused..

Are successful...

Are unsuccessful..

Are poor..

Are rich...

Are wealthy..

Are classy..

Are trashy..

Are good...

Are bad...

Are blessed..

Are easy to get along with..

Are hard to deal with..

Forget who they are...where they came from...where theyve been..where theyre going..and become completely egotistical, wisenheimers who think they are above reproach..think they know everything..have learned everything..understand everything that is going on in the world..

Are detached from reality..

Are unwilling to face reality...

Are unaware that the persona and smoke & mirrors they are displaying is as transparent as the screen they are using to hide it..

Are the smartest dumb people I know..

STOP THINKING B/C U READ A BOOK..GOT A DEGREE..LEARNED A LITTLE ABOUT POLITICS..THAT U KNOW EVERYTHING..SOCIAL NETWORK ASS JUNKIES!!

Check out my other blog for HAIR TIPS

http://iammyhairindubitably.blogspot.com/

HI HATA!

THAT
IS
ALL..

I AM MY HAIR

I believe "good hair" is healthy hair. I believe you can "train" your hair to do what you want it to do."Going Natural" only intensified the self love, self esteem, self worth, & self confidence that I already exude. Being a dark skinned African American woman & not having coarse hair is really hard for most people to deal with. Im over the "good hair", "bad hair", dark skinned, light skinned mess. I even deal with it in my own family. 

I love my hair, I've been completely obsessed with it. Even to the point to where everything revolved around me doing my hair. But, through bad hair cuts, bad dye jobs, hairstylist cutting my hair off on purpose, I have calmed down some about my hair.

I have been through so many changes with my hair, correcting, fixing, adapting that I have learned that the humility & humiliation from these experiences intertwine with the rest of my life. My hair looks its best when I am taking care of it. Which means, I am at my best when I am taking care of me.

I realize I am my hair, it is apart of my very being, it resonates in my soul. Every strand of it shows my plight, my flight, my goals. Every move of it puts me closer to the place I want to be.We have made it through many storms & we have many more to go.I am my hair b/c even when damaged, the strength in my strands shines through.

I am my hair b/c I have an indomitable will to stand firm in my stance even when I am falling apart from the inside out.I am my hair b/c I love & believe in me indubitably. I would love for African American women to love the "hair they're in" & please keep that black gel out your hair!

Mirrors

Mirrors are 2 c...me..
Mirrors are 4 u 2 c u..
Mirrors are 4 us 2 c us..
Mirrors help me 2 reflect..
Mirrors help me 2 build on things..
Mirrors make u think that..
I think ?...
Mirrors should help u c more clearly..
Maybe u should clean it off..
Wipe it down...
Use a lil windex..
Instead of doin that..
U always wanna flex..
Im ur match..
Yup..
Im the rite 1..
U can...come...get..some..
Im not runnin..
I know u not runnin..
What chu want?
Does it really hafta be like that?
U waste ur talents..
I use mine..
Im not givin up..
Get some shit done..
WHAT!
I mean get it on ur own..
Shit..
Im creatin my own..
U take from somebody elses..
I don't respect that shit..
Get wit it..
Come get it..
What eva it may be..
Im always ridin solo..
Always DOLO..
BUT..I'd rather...
C u @ the top..I don't have a problem savin u a spot..
Save me 1 2..If its not like that..than..kew..I have no problem walkin away from u..
Ole OPPORTUNISTIC ass u..

I WANT U 2..

Im beggin u ta come get me..

Hang around me..
Act like we friends til the end..
FAKE?
PHONY?
BITCH THATS U!

U still havent figured out what u need 2 know..
BWHAHA!
I BE...
THE..
C...A

Bitch like me..
CONTINUES 2 MATURE..LEARN..& GROW..

Im waitin 4 the likes of u..

2..

Come fuck with the likes of me..

Get cha weight up..

Bring ya bitches..

Ya mamas 2..

Bring some seedy..shady..grimy..opportunistic niggas 2!

Im ready 4 all of u!
U gone need'em..
Im talkin old skool ass whoopins..
Im talkin back handin the shit outta u..
like a pimp would do..

Im not duckin or dodgin or runnin from u bitches..

U niggas r bitches 2..

Got me so mad Im usin nigga n my vocab..
Im above all that.

U above all that?

Above all what..

Piece of shit cunts..

FUCK YOU WANT!?

Im standin here waitin!

BRINGGGGGGG EVERYOOOOOOONE!!!!

Lessons

Im drownin here..
How did I get here?
Great work ethic?
Hardwork pays off?
Persistence pays off?
CURSED?
Worse?
Loser?
Bum?
Scum?
Questions I ask myself..
Reflecting on my life..
Wondering how I can wake up from this nightmarish dream..
Searchin it seems..
4 Joy? Happiness? Peace? Peace of mind? The Lime?Life?Breath?
Yes
Somewhere, I lost site of things..
I lost a piece of me..
Somehow I hafta find it or surely I will fall prey..
2 the swarm circlin around me..
Ready to take me out..
If..
When..
I show any signs of weakness..
Ready pounce on my very being..
But..
My back..has carried the weight of many..
U think u were the 1st 2 want 2 take me out?
I refuse 2 conform...
2 give n 2 u..
2 lose when I know the WINNER n me..
TRUMPS the LOSER n u..
Just wait..ull c..clothes dont make shit but designers money...
Cars end up n junk yards..
Words mean shit...
So TALK it..
Ha!
Better yet..
Id rather u walk it..
But u..ur very being..every morsel in ur body..
Is workin on how u can dead me..
It..
Hates me..
Detests me..
Is waitin 4 me 2 give up..give in..2 quit..
But Ive prepared my whole life 4 u..without even knowin..
Rite now...my BODY is buildin as we speak..
u know wha I mean..
Uve heard me say it b4..
A BIGGER.
BETTER.
ME.

REFLECTIONS

Take a step back..

U really on that?

U really think that?

U dont believe ME?

I take that personal-ly..

I am the most honest 

straightforward person 

I know..

I have some work 2 do

I can reflect back..

I can think back..

Shouldve listened to my gut..

WTF! 

I seen The Bishop the other day..

Musta been a sign..I need 2 change my ways..

Reflections are all I see..

All I know..

Only way I know how 2 grow..

2 B the best imsoveritdotcom I can be..

U reallly don't know me..

I want errthing B about me?

Naw u do..

U didnt give me a chance..

Im kew with that..

Lessons Im willing 2 learn..

Strength ur givin me..

Each time u go hard..

Understand I build walls high as China..

Earthquakes shake me..

I reinvent myself again..

Build up still..

This time with steel..

Waiting on the next Tsunami 2 hit..

Aint that about a BITCH! 

My indomitable will wont let U win..

My fight is longer than ur plight..

Reflections are my secret 2 getting up again..

Reflections keep me humble..

Reflections help me stay in the ring..

Each time u hear the ding..

U wakin 2 my victory..

Im standin over u...

TKOed U..

Whose next?

What u got?

I have 3 more corners left...

Lace up..

I DONT GIVE A FUCK!

MY THOUGHTS

No woman ever wants to feel as if she is a fraction of herself to a man. We never want to be. I am an extremely guarded woman. When I let you into my world, it's because I wanted you there. Because I thought you deserved to be there and my intentions for you were good. It could be that I am a fraction of a woman to/and for you, and that is okay, I'd rather you find the woman who multiplies you and I find the man who multiplies me. The best thing about a fraction is it eventually makes a whole. 

IF I knew it all...IF I had done it all..IF I had experienced it all..I wouldn't have a need for humiliation..I wouldn't learn anything from those around me..I wouldn't have learned from example..I wouldn't understand right from wrong or "doing the right thing"..I wouldn't have morals, values, ethics..and I wouldn't have learned constructive criticism. I would be further than I am because I know and understand persistence pays off..I know and understand that I have broken barriers...I have created history..and whether anyone will ever or wants to acknowledge it..I HAVE DONE THINGS that no one else has EVER done...We ALL have..These are small feats in my little life..That are examples of my struggles and strifes..

Understand this..When you tell me something about me..I learn from it, I work on it, I hone it..

I BUILD A BIGGER...BETTER ME..I mean that with humility..

An INDOMITABLE WILL

I was probably born with will..I remember age 5 when you couldn't tell me anything and I didn't find a way to find out if it wasn't the truth...At age 8..I knew things and contemplated things 8 year olds shouldn't have thought about. I knew I was different from my entire family. I saw a light. That I knew throughout my life many would try to destroy. 

I used to wonder why I didn't have a distinct talent, Im not a singer, professional dancer, model, actress, designer, writer, or author. I often wondered, "Why don't I have a talent?" 

Until one day I realized, I did, I have, it's buried within the depths of my soul. I have always had this will, this force, that won't stop trying, this will that won't go away, this inability to give up or in or make excuses for my life.

If you knew where I came from, where Ive been, you wouldn't think my plight was against you, you wouldn't take the decisions and choices I make so personally. 

My GIFT is WILL..

MY GIFT is strength..

MY GIFT is woven so deep inside of me..that the more you try to cut it out..to destroy..

MY GIFT is automatically going to protect..

MY GIFT was learning to love and accept me for exactly who I am at an extremely early age..

MY GIFT doesn't expect you understand, but does expect you respect it.

If you are unable to do that, then I expect you to walk away..leave me be..I can't STOP being who I am for you. 

MY GIFT won't let me. 

MY GIFT has a plan in store for me..

I will ALWAYS protect myself because Ive always had too. She won't let you tear her down, spit her out and destroy her very being. She is prepared for you because she has already been torn apart by those close to her. So plot against me..she..her..I..Until there is no breath left in you..

MY GIFT understands this is all about you...

"U" & "UR" are relative statements...

Invisibility

Keen

Aware

Sharp

Quick

Wit

Sick wit it

Game?

Game.

U know I c it rite?

U know I caught that rite?

Brand new new?

YUP!

Thats how it B

When the time fits

Permits

Ha

Thats that "new money"

Nothing like that new new new

Im Kew Kew Kew

Be 5 different ppl

Around 5 different ppl

Hollow Man

Oceans seas

AAAAA....plenty

Consumption

Ur offense is going hard?..

my defense go harder..

This isn't all out war..

What is all this for?..

Pipe down..

Turn that frown upside down..

THIS SHIT IS ABSOLUTE COMEDY..

U figure out if ur Geppetto or the puppet...
MUPPET

Who I am?

My confidence, self worth, self-esteem, and self-assuredness come from my life's story. So if you see me exude confidence & I didn't comb my hair that day, or my clothes are not what you want them to be, and you think to yourself, why she still walking around like that? U know, with her hair pull back in that tight bun & she got her glasses on..it's because I am comfortable in the skin I am in.
God gave us all something special & unique, embrace what he gave you because Im definitely embracing what he blessed me with. More importantly my beauty runs from the outside in, the inside out. I am the epitome of beauty because I love & believe in me indubitably.

Back @ It Again..

So..

You know we all got a story..it makes us the people we r..

We are all strong in our own way because life experiences made us this way..

U know how it goes when life deals you a hand..

it's up to you to play the cards...

I think I have done alright, but not without some losses..

as long as I deal again..I WIN!

So..

Im back @ it again..

Im back 2 thinkin things thru..

This is good 4 me..

Berating myself for things not thought thru..

Things not good 4 me..like u..

Im finished with u..& u..

This is not a part of my life's plan..

Puttin my life in another's hand..

Coronary or heart attack..

I should..I could..

Ha!

If That...

If I was to..

If I...

But I'll stand back..walk away..take a back seat...

Say what I think because..

Nobody controls me..

But me..

Im just kid-----din..

Have any questions?

Concerns?

Don't send ur messenger..

Come c me..

Dont just have...

"All eyes on me"..

Come get me..

Can't bear 2 think..

Or stand..

Or be..

A minute without..

Ha..oh how I ha & heave...

This isn't a subliminal message..

It's however u take it..

Whatever u want it 2 be..

Never conniving..deceitful..

Sneaky..Shady...or Grimy..

Thats...

Not..

Me..

Im thinkin..

That mite b u..

And thats kew..

Apple doesn't fall 2 far from the tree..

Y did I STOP listenin 2 my gut..

My instincts..

Can't we just all get along?

LOL!

ABSOLUTELY..

I can't be fake or phony..

I hv no tolerance 4 BS!..

Im so over it..

Go play somewhere Im busy..

Get some encouragement..

U need me help u?

Here's a tip..

They wrote some books on it..

Audios too..

Singers sing about it..

GIRLS RUN THE WORLD..

Shouldve helped u...

Jealousy is not kute..

BACK THE FUCK UP..

If it helps u...

U WIN?

I LOSE?

KEW..

Back @ it again..

This time..

So sorry 2 disappoint u..

But..

Im not backing down..

Kid..

Kid?

Grown?

GROWN.


Disclosure: This isn't about "THE KID" its literally about "kids"

On 1 #?!

 

They swarm around me like satan n a circle..I pray u all off me..Let God straighten u all out..and heal ur mind, body, & souls...This is how an adult do..I don't play with kids..shoo..skoot..skoot..As an adult..this is how Imma handle u..Ive put u in a corner..ur in time out for 21 seconds..22 minutes..24 hours..and for 30 days..This wha imma do...Imma fast on u..all of u..

Big Ego 5

2 worried abt material things/
U 4got 2 build on otha things/
U live alone?
NO..
U got a roomie?
YES..
Been there..Done that?
YES..
U posed get ur own spot..
I had 1 b4 I was ur age..
I may b livin in the last days..
But surely I will rise again..
Then....nevermind..
Its what u dont c that makes me not worry..
Mad cuz I won't let u do me..
U got so much..
trade it n 4 a better one..
I mean..
a better car..
Cuz rite now..
Im waitin get like u?
Keep askin abt me/
Keep talkin ISH/
This lil kid..is really a grown woman/
Whisperin N the ear of each otha/
Somtimes u gotta put a child in their place/
Still aint learned ISH/
Think ur fly?
I laff @ ur fashion sense?
Ur style is lame?
And let me let u in on a secret?
Ur a lil 2 femi--nine/
And u lil kid...go fix ur wig/
Grown folks in the ring/
U wanna get in?
DING!
Ur go/
O and/
Since u got it like that/
Getta new whip/
and uh....
KEEP MY BIG EGO OFF UR LIPS!
The Kid is out..ready when u r 4 another bout..
Ready get it in like schwinn..
ur move..ur go..
LET'S GO!
Come get me..

I gotta BIG EGO 4

2 worried abt material things/

4got 2 build on otha things/

Keep askin abt me/

Whisperin N the ear of each otha/

Still aint learned shit/

tole u b4/

KEEP MY BIG EGO OFF UR LIPS!

ISOI!

Im tired people actin like 5 different people AROUND 5 different people!!!

ON some other ISH

I don't give a damn about u taking cheap shots..
Im ready 4 u...whether it b 1..2..3..or 4 of u..
I understand it is what it is..if thats how it is..
I let karma handle my lightweight while I continue set these success dates!
Everyday in this place is like the Young and the Restless! 
Stress this!
HA!
Ur lookin @ the best kid..
U ready 4 this? 
Im amid ur eyelid?
Go play on a swing...
Lil kid..
Put n ur bid...get lost in it..this is out n the open..aint shit hid-den..ya dig!
Who needs a man as a motivator?
Im always...
ON some other ISH!

ON 2DAYS EPI OF: HEALTHY HAIR

Take my advice its free:

-This is not just a process for “long” hair or for those wanting to grow their hair, but a formula to healthy hair, because when you focus on the “health” of your hair, it will grow to its "longest possible natural length". Your hair will never grow longer then your “natural length”, but it can and will be healthy.

LOVE

defined as strong affection, tenderness, sexual desire for another..

But LOVE seems 2 b deeper than that..

It will have u baring ur soul 2 one person..

Because u believe ur LOVE will stand the test of time, and then ur disappointed every time..

LOVE has broken many of hearts, mine 2 start, and I mustered up the strength to break free..but 

U wont release me..LOVE..let me go..let me be..let me live..

I can't bare it any longer..Ive bared my heart & soul 2 LOVE..

And yet..LOVE refuses to hear me..never listens..just takes my LOVE & says..u owe me...

At all costs..no matter what..

But..what if..LOVE...what if..I wake up one day & LOVE has passed me by..

LOVE doesn't seem to care..LOVE is faith..LOVE is loyalty...

U can't escape it..it takes away ur very breath..& n that breath u again..try 2 break free..2 walk away..&

The LOVE that u have LOVED...pulls u back in..

LOVE never breaks free..makes u smile when u think of it..cry when u cant bear it..

I wonder if..I can..say..my LOVE is more powerful than I imagined..my LOVE tears @ ur soul..LOVE.complicates LIFE

LOVE comes @ a sacrifice..

LOVE..is..everything it should be..everything it was meant 2 be..except..

LOVE makes u choose..

LIFE over LOVE..

MY MIND..BODY & SOUL..

This is food for my soul..I needed this..4 me...& only me..

I GOTTA BIG EGO 3

Oh! I'm back on this other shit!
I won't compete with U! I'm above all that! I have always aspired to genuinely help those around me, but now....It's all about me..So Holla @ me or better yet COME GET ME!
Most won't understand this, I'm sorry about that, I just had 2 get some ish off my chest..2 those of u who "get" me and really love me and give a !%#* about me..Thank u 4 being a part of my life...I appreciate and love u!
But to those of you always runnin ya mouth..trying to act like I wanna be like you..listen boo..I AM ME! U dealing with your own insecurities..
I wish life wasn't such a BITCH..NOW RUN TELL THIS!
BiG EGO

Accomplishments..

Can be seen with ur own eyes, or from the piece of paper handed 2 u for each 1 u put under ur belt..

I got those..

some ppl got more

some less

some..none @all

Who u r

Wha u have

is either the truth

or its not

CAPITALIZE on ur talents

or let them wilt & die

ur move..ur choice

I believe n failure

I believe n fallin on my face

Ive had my "first time for everythings"

happen often..its happening NOW

The difference is..I dont give up or give in or make excuses 4 my life

I keep tryin..movin..reachin..

I give 100% without being opportunistic..

runnin game on ppl

cheatin ppl

or gettin over on anyone

When u can say that

then I'll believe you

til then..

I'll watch u stay where uve always been

watch u wait 4 others paydates

WAIT!

get some accomplishments!

Get something on ur on..by urself..with nobody's help..then...

I'll believe u..

Til then...

ISOI!

BLOG THERAPY 11

‎2 realize ur full potential, u must know ur worth, 2 realize ur worth, u must live ur life, 2 live ur life, u may have 2 walk away from others, 2 walk away from others, u must B willing 2 undo..unlearn EVERYTHING..Its amazing 2 me how ppl do things & u bear the consequences & the weight of that..Im willing 2......undo..unlearn..relearn..walk away..

u seem 4get..Ive lived my whole life 4 other ppl..

THIS IS MY LIFE...I won't do things anybody else's way, but my own..from this point forward..either jump in with the way Im doing things or keep it moving..I won't sacrifice any longer, I am going 2 be SELFISH from this point forward..Live in my moment..or..don't..either way..Im putting me first..

I have no choice but to..c..Ive been pushed 2 far..given up 2 much..put myself on the line 4 others 2 many times..2 let u in..let u win..or put u or anybody else first..wont b...cant b the case..

"U" in a relative state...

This is my truth..my life..my thoughts..my blog therapy..

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If you feel me...share my blog with others!
Thank u n advance

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice its free:

  IF u decide to blow dry ur hair, use a roller brushes or use the comb attachment so that u don’t have as much breakage

ME

Whoa wait wha u say?

Damn that little awkward looking, dark skinned, "ugly" girl then blossomed in this world...

YAll really like 2 talk ish..

Ur not as cute as the older ones..u only hv "good hair" b/c ur mama lite skinned...

BITCH wha u got?

I got that u gotta look @ me 3 times type swag..
I love that about me..makes a man appreciate me..

I dont put it all out there like u do..

BOOBOO

Ull never be pretty..so this must be a glamour shot..whoa wait..b/c it was a pretty pic u wanna take cheap shots..remember beauty fades..looks like ur on that track..my "ugly" duckling ass has blossomed n2 a beautiful swan..REEEALy?
HA! O ok..well let me let u n on a little secret..
My self esteem..self confidence..self worth is thru the roof..
Ur the one walkin around talkin about what u used 2 b..now talkin ish 2 me..sounds like u BITCHES wanna GET like me!
Im on some other ish..dont hv time worry abt U..
BIIIIOOOTCH!

REFLECTIONS

 

No sons No daughters, as bad as muthafuckas talk no ABORTIONS either, I laff @ that shit, use a condom or birth control it really works ya dig!
I actually was tryna be a role model, Show the importance of having a man around 2 help witH ish!

still doesnt stop people from talking ish..spreading lies & rumors!

ISOI!
Sorry I did not start early like you..
I tried 2 be a positive role model, but now I'm done..it's my year shine, it's really all about me...just let me be..Don't worry bout me..Imma always put my best foot forward and make it work...Seems like thats making some of u go beserk!
I know Im b n a jerk..word of advice..STOP lyin about ur accomplishments & get some real ish!
BITCH!

On 2days EPI OF: ROLLER SETS

Take my advice its free:

-When you go to the salon, advise your stylist that you want a roller set, try this for @ least 3 months.

It will reinforce what you are already doing. 

If you can stick to roller sets over heat, your hair will stay healthy.

-They can be the hard rollers (any size), straws (yes actual drinking straw), or flexible straight rod. 

FOR BEST RESULTS: Use a FOAM setting lotion

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice its free: 

Buy the hard hair rollers (biggest you can find, they may be gray in color for loose curls, or whatever size u choose) and learn to roll your hair (if you don't already know how), the less heat, the healthier your hair and this also will give you the volume you want(is hair is limp). (this would be for those who have thin hair & volume or just want healthy hair) you will also need to buy a sit under dryer.

FOLLOW ME!

DONT JUST VIEW MY DAMN BLOG! FOLLOW ME!
LOL!

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice..it's free:

YOU SHOULD PLAN ON WASHING YOUR HAIR EVERY 3, 4, 5, OR 7 DAYS (you will figure out what works best for you) but it is important to have a routine because the goal is to “train” your hair to do what you want it to do.

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice..it's free:

"I just seen ur hair & it gave me a coronary & um..here's a tip"

IDK Y u think brown/black gel is gettin it? its not..cut it out!

Im not a hairstylist...BUT

Imma bout 2 start walkin around with a hair party pack! 

Its not that hard learn how 2 comb ur own hair

On 2days EPI OF:

Take my advice..it's free:

"I just seen ur hair & um..here's a tip"

Let ur hair air dry/then flat iron &/or press it..

conditioning is the key

Tired c n tired ass weaves

Adjust ur weave like u would a skirt
Stop wearin weaves if u can't pay that real dough 4 em
& when u pay real dough 4 em..
style it so I cant c the lacefront
matter of fact..stop front in
tired ur tired ass weaves
Wear ur own hair
Learn how 2 comb it
Learn how 2 manage that shit
I told u I got that young word doc
I can send it 2 u real quick
matter fact
lemme wait on that
Imma stop givin way my tips 4 free..
PAY ME

HI HATA!

Hand in HI HATA MOTION: 

On 1 4 a minute...N my purest form..hair pulled back..Old Navy t-shirt on..C u think u lookin @ the BEST of me..Layers 2 this onion..pages 2 this book..Either way it goes..Imma good look..Got goals..dreams...aspirations 2 make it..

MOTIVATION...

Focus on the good things about u..Build up ur self-esteem..self confidence..self worth..Nobody's perfect..learn love best things about u..it may far exceed me..but ur 2 worried abt me..2..c..ur own beauty? talents? But until then..until u do..I'll continue..2..turn my haters N2 motivators