FIRST COLLEGE GRAD WHETHER U LIKE IT OR NOT..BITCHES!

I am the first college graduate on my mama's side of the family. 
I used to want to be a role model, to positively encourage..to help..to support..now, Im just focused on continuing 2 be the best person I can be.

My whole life Ive been surrounded by opportunistic ppl..full of opportunism & opportunistic ways..Ive been over "U"...I think we all realize that..Life is 2 short 2 hold grudges, & definitely 2 short 2 worry about giving my energy 2 parasites.

There are some people who don't get it until it's too late or almost 2 late or never @ all. Sometimes "U" have to see people for exactly who they R & "U" have 2 let their life run its course & pray that they turn out alrite.

Ive lived most of my life for others. Mostly for ppl who really dont care, who ddnt & dont deserve my time, energy, or breath..they came and come around 2 c what I have (and compare) or to take what little I can give..whether its $$$, info, material things..or honestly…anything they can get!

They are coming for me! Don't think I don't see you! Ha! Its fine..I have a different take on life..I won't compete with "U"!

Catch up to me, pass me, doesn't matter to me! 

Im checking my goals off genuinely. 

Im happy 4 "u" & "ur" continued success..b/c these children NEED positivity & positive role models in their lives!!! 

(SALUTE)

I wish u the best..

Nothing I do is b/c of somebody else anymore. I won't go outta my way to help anybody, Give "U" any info or anything else B/C u simple, basic, ignorant ones hv ruined it 4 me. 

BTW "U" is rhetorical...."U" is an affinity..or if "U" think Im talking about/to "U"...then I AM.

Im talking about ppl who are just messy & shady..alwys in ur business..acting AS IF they really care..BUT "U" DONT! or are supportive..BUT "URE" NOT! 

"U" ARE just like errbody else..trying c what "U" can get, take, steal..

Getting errthing I have & coming behind errthing I do..& 4 what?! 

Im happy & GLAD U CAN DO IT! 

What are u jealous & envious of? I hv no more or less than "U" do. 

I hv vowed to live my life for me...& I am doing so slowly..Ive worked hard to get to where I am and everybody wants to pat themselves on the back. 

IM TIRED OF THAT!

"U" DDNT STRESS..STRUGGLE..SACRIFICE..PRAY..CRY..LIKE I DID/DO to ENSURE my goals, dreams, & aspirations become reality..and more importantly, I don't think I'm better than anybody. 

I DON'T BELIEVE IN BEING "BETTER"..I BELIEVE IN & STRIVE FOR GREATNESS.."U" CAN KEEP THAT SIMPLE..BASIC.."GOOD" ISH!..I’ll leave that petty, “I just got over on “U” to get what want” backwoods way of thinking, “Im better than “U””, FOR ALL OF “U”.

Im not perfect..Ive made mistakes..Ive never tried to give the impression that I am/haven't. 

That's ur insecurity. 

"U've" always had a/the problem with me.

 I jst ddnt know it..

WELL...I DO NOW!!

ANYTHING I SAY DOESN'T COME FROM BEING UNHAPPY OR MISERABLE. IT COMES FROM THE EXASPERATION OF BEING TREATED LIKE TRASH UR WHOLE LIFE BY PPL WHO SHLDVE NEVER DID IT...

"FAMILY"..

TO BE ABLE TO GET OVER SOMETHING/SOMEONE MEANS THAT THE THINGS THT ARE HAPPENING HAVE TO STOP..

SO THATS WHY IM MAKING MOVES TO RID MYSELF OF TRASH..I MAY BE TRASH TO "U" TOO..THATS KEW..B/C THE FEELINGS ARE COMPLETELY MUTUAL!

THERE R VERY FEW PPL WHO GV A DAMN..I STILL GOT "U".."U" KNOW WHO "U" R..BUT THOSE OF "U" WHO ALWAYS HV SOMETHING TO SAY..

ITS OKAY..I WISH U WELL..I PRAY ALL THE THINGS "U" WANT AND NEED HAPPEN TO AND FOR "U"..MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS "U" & "UR" FAMILY(IES) AND I MEAN THAT GENUINELY.

THE REASON IM SO FUCKED UP..IS FUCKED UP!

DYSFUNCTION IS SOME SERIOUS ISH!

But I know Ive always been genuine & good 2 “u”..&..im over it..

“Ure” smart..capable..& can def do it on “ur” own..

We dont need each other..

I believe we're both @ the point where we realize it..

PPL always wanna take way from my accomplishments..It took me 13 years to graduate! 
"U" had the same time more or less 2 do it b4 me! & "u" didnt!! 

THATS UR FAULT! Im not gonna apologize..

WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT..IM THE FIRST COLLEGE GRAD! 

DONT BE UPSET ABOUT IT..UVE HAD/HAVE UR FIRSTS BEFORE ME...& IM KEW..IM FINE WITH THAT..

Im not the one competing or bragging...THATS "U" when I tell anybody anything..I was just sharing things that were/are going on in my life! 

I just felt the need to point that out! 

I have goals, dreams, and aspirations..to make it 2..just like "U"!

Continue to compete with me, that's your problem!

My resilience to succeed will continue to lead me. Although I will never extend myself to others again completely, I won't stop being who I am..Im jst gonna go back 2 guarding myself & 2 trusting no one. 

My thoughts are only my thoughts now bc ppl either wanna compete or wish ill on me. 

If “u” dont know what's gng on with me..then “u” dont know what to wish ill on or compete against. 

Ive learned that most ppl dont care about me, they are just waiting to see what Im going to do next and do it after me, or rush to do it before me.

“U're” only competing with “Urself”.
Im just tryna experience all that life has to offer..

“Finally!”

Ive worked hard to get to where I am. Ive just tried 2 show these children that “u” can make it positively. 

Use sweat equity 2 do it! 

Guess what..

I fail, I lose, I fall often & I fall hard, but as LONG AS I GET UP & TRY AGAIN..I WIN!..

AS I ALWAYS SAY..

"THE WINNER IN ME WONT QUIT"...

I am a completer..a finisher..a leader..a WINNER...

I pray that God heals ur mind, body, and soul 2 help "U" get over the HATRED , JEALOUSY, & ENVY "U" have in "UR" heart for me. 
Because Im over "U" in dubiously.

SHUT UP BITCH!

Thoughts I think..
Things I wanna say..
Sometimes I just say it..
I know I let you win when I do...
And I take that chance, its kew, really its kew..
I understand that deeeeep down inside, something isn't right..
And I understand its a pretty lonely place when you're too much of a coward to love urself for u..

I Just think that sometimes ppl need a reality check, including myself, IDK Y u believe ur on some other level that nobody else is, that nobody can obtain WHAT U "HAVE", u ddnt get there alone, but u sure will try ur best ensure nobody IS on "ur" level or gets there. Ur insecurity is more transparent then u think. Whether Ive changed or not, will always be a toss up, but delusion..is..another..thing..$$$/MATERIAL THINGS sure hasn't helped u grow any, OR TO love urself more, or to take accountability, responsibility, ownership 4 ur life. Keep talking about me, taking shots, making stank comments, thinking IDK..I do...I needed to hear it/that..its helping me grow..May God heal ur mind, body and soul.

Be prepared..

When u takin shots at someone..for them respond...
FOR A "WHO DO U THINK U R?...
THAT U THINK UR ISH DONT STANK?... &
THAT U HV IT COMPLETELY TOGETHER?.. &
REMEMBER...THERE WAS ONLY (1) PERFECT MAN WHO WALKED THIS EARTH..
& IT WASN'T U...

THAT IS ALL...

SOME PEOPLE

Got issues..

Got problems..

Are actually smart..

Are intelligent..

Are gifted..

Are driven...

Are motivated..

Are focused..

Are successful...

Are unsuccessful..

Are poor..

Are rich...

Are wealthy..

Are classy..

Are trashy..

Are good...

Are bad...

Are blessed..

Are easy to get along with..

Are hard to deal with..

Forget who they are...where they came from...where theyve been..where theyre going..and become completely egotistical, wisenheimers who think they are above reproach..think they know everything..have learned everything..understand everything that is going on in the world..

Are detached from reality..

Are unwilling to face reality...

Are unaware that the persona and smoke & mirrors they are displaying is as transparent as the screen they are using to hide it..

Are the smartest dumb people I know..

STOP THINKING B/C U READ A BOOK..GOT A DEGREE..LEARNED A LITTLE ABOUT POLITICS..THAT U KNOW EVERYTHING..SOCIAL NETWORK ASS JUNKIES!!